Reach Out in the Darkness

I’ve been afraid to post because I’m just so ridiculously attached to my cats and I’m concerned that I might sound, well, ridiculous. I’ve also been avoiding taking pictures of Buddy because he’s not looking his best, and I thought I shouldn’t record him now in order to allow these images to fade later.

But today he’s rallied a little bit and so I took a shot. He’s seriously jaundiced but it doesn’t show up so much in this photograph, I don’t think anyway. I think he looks beautiful. You’d never know he had small cell gastrointestinal lymphoma, and now large cell lymphoma, with involvement in his liver, spleen and kidneys, and forget his blood tests results. Everything you don’t want elevated is elevated.

But just in case someone comes along whose cat was recently diagnosed with small cell gastrointestinal lymphoma, do not despair. My cat has had this for close to three years. You might still have your cat around for a long time yet.

Stacy Horn

I've written six non-fiction books, the most recent is Damnation Island: Poor, Sick, Mad, and Criminal in 19th-Century New York.

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7 thoughts on “Reach Out in the Darkness

  1. It’s good to see that beautiful face. Nothing ridiculous about adoring these creatures: cats are one of the two perfect designs in the universe (the other, by the way, is a clock. I read that somewhere in a book of cosmology).

  2. My two favorite things, cats and clocks. Would you believe that I have five clocks alone in my living room (one, an old mantel clock doesn’t work)?

    Cats can surprise you with their sturdiness. I thought Miss Mouse was at death’s door two and a half years ago, but she rallied and was good to go until June.

  3. He does indeed look beautiful. And, you will never sound ridiculous because so many of us have been there and we understand completely. I’m sure it helps to share your thoughts so post away.

  4. What a beautiful portrait. Very handsome cat. I would definitely take lots more pics of him. You don’t have to look at them if they make you sad to look at Buddy when he’s so sick, but one day, you’ll be happy to have them all.

  5. Vivian and Karen: You’ve just given me the urge to have a ticking clock. I want to have that sound in my apartment.

    Thanks for the compliments about Buddy! I don’t know how long Buddy’s rally will last, it’s not a big rally, he’s eating only a little, but before it was nothing. And he’s just more present.

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